Hm, I’m not sure if that even accurately describes how I feel right now. It’s like a mix of excitement and anxiousness. It’s like being a teen sneaking out to meet that girl or guy you like. Yeah. I think that’s it. One part mischief, one part anxiousness, and one part excitement.
I’ve been waiting all month for this. I tried to take care of all the leftover business in order to move on to what I want. Unfortunately, my parents left me with more chores than I can count and even some of my chores have got chores. Oh, and it’s not good enough to get them done. I gotta do the chores their way. I’m guessing they don’t want me going to see anyone. Quite frankly, I don’t care what they want. It’s their house. They can do the chores their damn self. I got somewhere I need to be. If I’m gonna do any chores it’s gonna be done my way. I’ve wasted enough time trying to get things just right for them. I got somewhere I need to be and I’m already late. No one waits forever and certainly not for me.
This last weekend was a small taste of things to come. Lots of friends in town and lots of mischief to be had. Though I didn’t get to see everyone, I was surprised by faces I hadn’t seen in a long time. It was nice. Made me understand a few things: the past brought me to the present and yet it’s still the past, the present is guided by what I want in the future and yet it’s meant to be lived without regrets, and the future closes the loop of the past and yet it’s also constantly changing.
It’s all a matter of time. And just like time, life is simply a construction of human kind in order to maintain, well, order. We all eagerly struggle to find meaning and purpose that we are quick to listen to someone else tell us what we should what to do, when to do it, and why we should do it. Eventually, all we know of ourselves is what we’ve been told.
Why not decide for yourself where your life shall go. I’ve decided for myself. And I am very excited.
I saw a teenage couple in borders looking in the sex section the other day. They were definitely young enough to have someone tell them they were too young to be having sex.
So I went over there and lectured them on how they were too young to be having sex and that they had better be prepared to accept the consequences of a child if they insisted on having sex. “Don’t go cryin’ and tryin’ to get an abortion if you get pregnant,” I told the young lady. Then I threw a couple of condoms at the guys face and said, loudly: “At least use bloody (not literally bloody, that’s disgusting) condoms!”
Ok I made that up. I saw a teen couple in the sex section in borders the other day and simply thought: “Good. Better they learn from books than their idiot friends who probably don’t know anything and are bragging about experiences they never had.”
My faith in the teens of the world increased a wee bit. I can sleep a wee bit better tonight.
This is going to be an odd one as it just kinda popped into my head while I was writing something else.
So the thing is I use to dislike watching movies with people (I probably still do if it’s a really interesting movie). I use to really dislike it when people talked while watching a movie. I’d still go watch movies with friends and family but preferred to watch a movie alone. It allowed me to really focus on the movie without distractions. I use to really, really enjoy watching movies and really, really disliked being distracted from it.
However, while writing something else, I realized that watching a movie with friends wouldn’t be as enjoyable unless we’re making our own commentaries. Especially while watching comedies. Comedies were made for people to comment on. As I grow up I realize there are fewer and fewer movies that are that great that I’d really want to get into it. These days I watch a movie with little expectation except to be entertained. If the sole purpose of the movie is to simply entertain, then watching it with friends and being able to talk to each other while watching makes it much more enjoyable.
I always felt that going to the movies was not a great way to spend time with friends. There is very little interaction. Some movies can spark a lot of conversation afterward though. The Prestige and Napoleon Dynamite come to mind. However, movies like that are currently few and far between. Movies are definitely better with friends, snacks, drinks, and plenty of stupid commentary.
I’ve been reading a lot lately. A couple of Paulo Coelho books went by quick. A book on investing in gold and silver came and went. I have also started an ebook on creative mortgage financing, a book on commercial real estate, and a sci-fi fantasy novel in my beloved Dragonlance series. (I have not read a Dragonlance book in a while and I have been wanting to read the Kinslayer Wars for years. Unfortunately, I can’t seem to get all 3 books in the trilogy so I started the Elven Exiles trilogy instead). All the while reading a friend’s old xanga entries, which, has got to be the strangest yet most interesting book I have ever read.
We create these blogs for many different reasons. We write these online journals to either express our thoughts, fill friends in on what’s been going on in our lives, or to even commentate on different things occurring around the world. I don’t think many of us ever think that they’ll be read like an old book. It is a very interesting to do so. Reading what has happened in my friend’s life in the past 5 years is crazy. Who would ever think that we could some day read the stories of our friends’ lives! (It’s strange in that it feels a bit stalker-ish but I won’t get into that.) It’s very interesting because it feels like I’m reading an autobiography! It’s different than reading my friends’ blogs as they were being posted. That feels like reading the daily news. Reading an old blog of a new friend is like reading their history. Quite interesting indeed.
Dorks are the premier examples of growing up without growing old.
They are silly, foolish, and they do not care as much about what others think. They can laugh at themselves and at life all the while taking care of their responsibilities and being mindful of their family and friends.
A revolution is coming and it is being led by, that’s right, dorks.
Ellen DeGeneres, host of an award winning talk show: dork
Amanda Bines, star of Sydney White: dork
Jessica Biel, actress in We Now Pronounce You Chuck and Larry: dork
Fanny Pak, Jaba, Kaba, Super Crew: dorks, dorks, dorks, dorks
Barack Obama, US Senator and presidential nominee: dork (oh you contest? watch the clip below)
