September was the toughest month for me all year. I think I said that before about previous months but that’s just how bad it has been. Each month feels worse than the one before. I might get a little break for a weekend or maybe even a week but 2008 has been without a doubt the most challenging year of my young life. That’s right, “young.” Too many friends complaining about how old they are. Geez, we’ve barely lived and everyone is talking about how old we’re getting. We’re a long way away from rightfully calling ourselves old! Sorry, I digress.
Anyway, where was I. That’s right, it has been the most challenging year of my young life. It has actually been a rough year for a lot of my friends too. I don’t mean to belittle their troubles by complaining about my troubles. Though, this year feels like things have been working against me. I actually had a bad feeling about 2008 but tried to make the best of it. I’m not going into a year thinking it’s going to be a terrible year. That’s just depressing. Despite all the tough months I did manage to enjoy many moments in 2008. I learned a lot about real estate, business, my family, and myself. I got to spend time with my second sister and watch her graduate. I spent time with my friends in Vegas, with many of my friends who have made trips to Las Vegas and I got to take many trips myself between Las Vegas, Southern California, and Northern California. I went back to Vietnam to visit the motherland with my siblings and visit my family in Vietnam. I’ve seen new places and met new friends. No, 2008 was not a complete disaster. However, it has been marked by a theme of stormy weather with last month being the worst I had to bear.
At one point I actually felt that everything was too much and I had no where to go. I had got in over my head and I couldn’t think of any options to pursue. Up the creek without a paddle, comrades, or R. Kelly singing “My minds tellin’ me no, but my body, my body is tellin’ me yeah…” And this is not something I’d admit lightly since I do have my reputation to maintain. I pride myself on being optimistic and being able to figure out some way to make the best of any situation. If people knew that despite my optimistic sarcasm and stupid goofball humor that I was really just as vulnerable as they are they may start to think that I’m on the same level as them. Pfffft, let’s not go into why that absolutely is not the case. Nevertheless, like my 2nd sister has said, everyone has their limits. Everyone has different limits but everyone has their break point. Pressure someone enough and they’ll react. Whether it’s in happiness or sadness, everyone has a point where they can’t hide the joys and disappointments of life.
Normally I wouldn’t write so seriously and straight forward, yes, this is actually me being pretty serious and straight forward, about such a down time in my life. However, I do so now because I can feel the winds changing. It started with my brother and RJ coming to help me move out of a house. After being able to argue over stupid topics with my brother I started to feel less stressed. I don’t often show that I’m stressed but I am human. I just suppress it because I don’t like being bummed out when I’m with friends. I like to enjoy my friends company when I can. Good moments with friends will be too far and few between as we get older. Older not old. Damn, off track again.
Anyway, this last week has presented a turning point in the year. Subtle but it surely has started. I could feel the force shift. The force? WTF? Need to stop listening to all that geek news on webcast. Anyway, I need to wrap this up as my attention is obviously slipping. As we entered into October I started feeling tons better. So much better that the winds in Vegas have actually picked up. Oh, if you don’t know I can affect the weather too, but we won’t get into that.
As the year comes to an end and 2009 approaches, I consider November the start of a new year, things will start changing for the better. For instance, I haven’t tried to watch Heroes, Bleach, or Naruto yet this week. That’s right, I have not. I know, it’s blasphemous. Like I said, the wind is coming. As in the movie, Chocolat, when the wind comes it’s time to move on. It’ll be more of a mental or perspective change in my life than a physical change. Though, I would really enjoy moving back to the Bay, however, there are many variables that make that decision hard to make right now. Yet, I do have a good feeling about it. I’ll say it again. The winds are starting to blow. A lot can happen in a short time and I have a really good feeling regarding the coming year!
Is anyone as excited as I am about this? Geez, I’m talking about a shift in the force here!
Enjoy the weekend everyone. Great things are coming.
